Love
and girls
Teenaged females of between 14-19 are called
girls they are of different types. Love is the basic element of the girls to be
a complete boom on her.
As I studied further girls are not same.
Even two sisters cannot be same. So as per my personal life experience with
girls are like an ocean they are as vast as the universe. In my life when I was
a teenaged boy I got chance to be with the girls and all of them are so
different that. You readers can’t even imagine how many new experiences, which
I had.
Well talking about those three girls that I hive
met.
First of all I would like to
start from my school girl:
Well, talking about her she was from
middle class family, her name starts from s******a. she is the most dummest
smart person that I have ever met in my whole life. She never speaks truth. She
talks big big things and try to make herself superior. She was such a fool that
I know about her everything her economic condition, her life style, her
capacity and finally her family.
One interesting thing about her is that
she thinks that she would be superior as much as she goes bad. I mean she
thinks that devilish is the greatest supersets thing. She finds beauty on
devil, isn’t that foolish thing? But, she never understood that. Well I was her
best friend at first and then knowing that it could be my great experience to b
with her I proposed her. It was the time of 2066/08/15. That was my first
propose and my first love for the first time.
As per I looked from her
psychological aspect I found that:
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She thinks devil
is the greatest thing
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If she would be
devil, she would gather everyone’s attention
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She would have
many friends
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She wants
popularity of her in between boys
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She wants to be a
dream girl of everyone without affecting her character
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She wants to have
more boyfriends so that her girl friends would respect her and think her as if
she is the love master and the piped piper of the boys
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She never rejects
when I offer her a date
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She hangs up in
the phone a lot some times I need to attach my Mobil on forehead to talk
because she needs to talk hours and hours
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The best thing
about her is that she always misses me and cares me because I was the best one
she could ever had
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Another best
thing is whenever I am angry she would never leave my hand until my anger is
gone. Whenever I am angry I used to keep my hands in my pocket and she rolls
her hand and holds me tight until my anger is gone.
Ø
The next best
thing is she never give a dam that what other people would think
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She used to walk
by holding my hand in public, she used to hug me any where and another best
thing is that she used to make my tie nuts anywhere and yes, these things made
me to think about her and lover her.
Ø
Talking about the
habits that I didn’t like is that she doesn’t likes to make girlfriends; she doesn’t
wants to spend time with them. She had lest girl friends but she had many
boyfriends and most of them were bad and you know, like uncivilized and
undisciplined. She used to interfere on others personal matters which made bad
impression of her in between me and my friends. So thinking about these I
thought I deserve more than this and the is not the best I can ever have. Then
I started not to love her truly as I used to.
After
that due to all of these things and incidents I was forced to leave her and
give her breakup. But before that she broke her leg then I thought that its my
responsibility to help her. So 3-4 times I went her home and teach her because
it was S.L.C time and she couldn’t come to school. I did all the things to help
her in her studies. Then finally S.L.C examination came she could walk alone
she needs help to walk. I helped her to go to the examination room and return
home too. At first before doing this I felt ashamed but after 2-3 times I got adjusted
over that environment. I did all these
things just because the things, all those experience that I got chance to learn
from her and all those loving and caring behaviors and for my self satisfaction.
I did this just to give something good to her that she would never forget
in her life even she didn’t wanted to
remember me. Doing this I got inner peace and a joy of happiness that now I won’t
be bad even I leave her.
After the S.L.C examination I send her a
message that
{ sweety, I cant be with you any more. its very
difficult for me because of my parents and backbiters. I had a great time with
you. You can find someone more special than me this is the end of our love
story. so this is the last message from now I don’t want any connection in between
us bye ]
She didn’t reply after this I think it
must be hard time for her because she loved me so much and I gave break up to
her in return. She must be very sad, angry, crying and other different hard
times. Well this was my first love story that ended in 19th chatira
2066.
After
that no more connections
But,
after two years she messaged me. At first I didn’t know who was that but she
messaged that
{ I
herd that you have new girlfriend in college but I still love you. Anyway have
a good time best of luck bye bye]
Well
that one made me to think about her again but I didn’t contact her because I
was already fed up from her. So I didn’t reply her when I knew that it was her.
So at last her chapter closed but at last I thought that because of my help and
care she still remembers me. That gave me a different kind of happiness that I can’t
express in words……..
THIS IS THE STORY OF MY FIRST
LOVE IN
CHILDHOOD WHEN I WAS
15
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After
that I went tot bride course in venue I met many new friends which were
completely different from my school friends. We guys had a great time in bridge
course in first month.
One day we raised a topic of picnic. We told
everyone to go with us. We were so exited and I was the main leading captain so
I had to inform other section also. So, for informing I waited for the next
morning section. I told the students of sec-A about picnic and they guys showed
their interest. Well one girl from that section wanted to help me as a volunteer
so she helped me and we had a talk together but she wasn’t so much unique so
that she would gather my attention. I didn’t notice her at that time. The next
day I declared that picnic fee was RS.500-/. The next day I collected the money
from my friends and asusal I waited her thinking that she would have collected
all the money from her section. At last she came but bad news she didn’t
collected any money. Then I said why she just smiled and said sore. I felt
something abnormal about that smile because such smile doesn’t comes normally.
Then she gave me RS: 500-/ I asked her not
to give now she can give tomorrow but she forced me. I was surprised why this
girl is forcing me to take money then I holded that money I found that it was
turned. “Ha-ha silly girl”, I said. Then after that I noticed her.
Talking about her, she is very cute. Her
childish behaviors just made me to think about her. I knew that she was
interested in me because she used to come very early so that she could meet me.
Well I thought another opening over here now, I thought so didn’t say anything.
From my first experience I had learned that we should have patience in us so I
waited. The next day I asked her no but she said wait time will come, I thought
am I just having a wrong fame.
But, here comes a but, next day she actually
asked my no. I was like haaa!!! Then I knew that she’s going to fall in my love
now.
From that day we had a continuous exchange of
msg. Those days I still remember the best days of my life. Hanging with mobile,
bundle of recharge cards, both sided interest, a kind of attraction, fear, shy
and of course love. Yeah love .I never thought how deep we would go at that
time.
Finally after 6 days of our friendship days I
proposed her in msg. then she replied “yeti bhanna kati garyo bhayeko, kati
dhila. But don’t worry its not late”
Now its time for picnic we guys had a great
fun on that day. We were together while going to Nagarkot I sang many songs
then she said,” wow you have got a natural cool voice I really love your voice”
well after that in picnic we both stayed together. We ate together then in the
evening she wanted to dance then with some of her friends she went to dance.
But she couldn’t because I wasn’t dancing then she came and snatched my hand
and forced me to dance. But how can I dance because I haven’t danced ever
before I refused then she sadly went near to her friends who were dancing but
she was looking at me sadly and I was looking at her with a sympathy face
because even I wanted I couldn’t go because I didn’t know how to dance. Few
boys come there and start to dance with her friends, and then she felt little
bit uncomfortable. Then immediately I stood up and move straight to the dance
place. Then I touched in her solder then she looked back and smiled at me. Then
I started to dance with her at first I felt little nervous but for I danced for
the first time in my life. We guys had a great wonderful moment together that
still comes in front of my eyes. We returned home and shared everything that we
both felt that day.
From
that day we guys started our love journey. We spend great time there. After a
month my class was finished so again to be with her I went to her section. We
both studied together there. We use to have great fun there.
After that we joined different college
because I thought that if we studied together then I might get irritated of her
of knowing about her and feel bad. So to keep my love alive I went to different
college.
Our classes started we both started to call
and message each other. To know about her I got chance to be friend with her
mom. I talked with her so nicely that she used to call me son. I asked her (my
gf) to tell her mom about us but she said its not the right time so not now.
Then I said ok then
So some time love sometime fight occurs but
we never loosed our hop I thought if I go like this way I will marry her.
But things never happen as we want. Her
father came in middle he forced her to leave me. She was in middle she got
confused then at last she thought for now let’s stop this love thing. But, how
could she?
She couldn’t. Then she said I will keep it
secret. Let’s continue our love story. Then again we started loving each other.
In one examination she got lest number then
her parents thought that because of me her study is hampered but that wasn’t
true. Then she got more forced from her parents to leave me. But she bared that
herself.
One day I tried her phone but it was off. She
called me at the evening that she is sick. Just that word made me sick of her.
I was so tended so that if I couldn’t be there at the time she wants me then I
called at her maternal uncle’s house then her grandma told me that she is
having a problem like paralysis her half part of the body is not working.
Dear readers think that you are in my
position. Your love one is dying u promised her to be with her every time and
when she needs you are not there. Then I called to her friends but you won’t
believe that non of them showed interest to go. Then I called my one close couple
to go with me because if I took girl with me she won’t face any problem. Then with
tearful eyes I went to her maternal uncle house. Then grand ma showed us the
way I went up she was getting out from bathroom. Her condition made me cry. I
cried inside my heart but a kind of happiness was in my face seeing her. Well I
talked to her grandmother that if there is anything that I could help. But she
said we are doing everything we could you don’t need to worry.
Then after having fruits we guys returned from
there. I felt happy by seeing her and she was also happy but a kind of fear was
within my heart that weather she would be fine or not. Doctors were unable to
find the treatment of her sickness. Then I suggested them to do the suppositious
thing just to make sure. They also did that but nothing happened. Her situation
was degrading day by day.
For the first time I prayed to the god for
her recovery but that didn’t worked.
Then,
her mom returned from London
One day I thought now I can go alone in their
home so after my college I went flower shop buyed flowers and walked to her maternal
uncle house. I was happy because she was recovering and I was going to meet her
soon. Well my happiness didn’t last for a minute. I called again on her
grandmothers mobile to inform that I am coming but her mom received phone. She
talked with me in rude voice. Then I asked her what was wrong then she said
“because of you my daughter is ill because you gave her mental stress. She is
ill because of mental stress”
Yes readers that sentence changed my life... The
second love but the first true love ended with no reason.
I
thought now I cant live there is no reason to live it would be better I would
die but the next evening her mom called me from her home. She made me
everything clear as water. She told me that I need to stay out of her because doctor
had said that they shouldn’t give any mental stress. So for her you please stay
out of her . if you are with her she will die”
Now I was totally out of my mind in what
situation time took me neither I can choose no nor I can choose yes. Both the
answers were not suitable for me.
It feels like I hit my leg with an axe and
now it is separated from my body and now I can neither join that nor throw that
away. So this killed me an all of my faiths in love, the actual understanding
of love and the moment of love.
I turned myself into the devil of love or
lets teacher of love I became a play boy now.
But there is a but I could I my mind only
wants me to do that but not my heart. My heart always loved her so I couldn’t
do that but I became the unhappiest person in the world. I never laughed again
from my heart. I always tried to smile but I forgot to smile. It took three months
for me to recover from this.
At
last I recovered and again smile came in my face because here comes another girl
now.
She is my class mate I had friendship with
her but not in love. After spending some time together again love feeling
arrived in me. Exactly that was not love it was just an agent to make over my
mood and cheer me up.
But again this college love
story grows into deep because she loved me astruly as I used to do with the
second girl. But this love story turrnned out to be the biggest love story that
I even had in my whole life. As per the time passed by. We were going deepeer
and deeper. Durring the end of class 11 I was totally in love with her. But
readers I was not very good boyfriend for her. I don’t know was it my age
factor or the teenage hermones I was a sick pathetic jelous basturd. I was so
sick that I wouldn’t let her talk with another boy. I used be with her all the
time. Yeah I admit most of the time we end up having lots of fun but I always
used to bound her inside me. I mean I would never let her go enjoy with her
anyother friends. We were very deep in love but the more I went deep with her
the more I felt more insecure .I mean a kind of fear developed in me that what
if she leave me( like my ex did ). So due to this fear I came on too strong on
her. I would always used to pick her up in the morning at home and after
college again I used to go her home always to leave her. I mean everymoment I
wanted to be with her. But you know what is wrost. Knowing your partner dosent
feels the same. I knew she wanted some freedom but I couldn’t controll myself.
Later on we used to fight a lot but anyhow no matter how bad the situation was
we always end of saying I love you to eachother. Honestly speaking I was a
selfish jerk. The sole purpose of being with this girl was just to forget my ex
but now she was the bigger part of my life. I mean as I started to grow up. I did
lots of things with her, I mean first ride in the columbus. First time cinema
on QFX , a little naughty on resturant and even in the bhootghr haha but now
that is closed I don’t know why. We had lots of memories together. Days passed
by so many incidents passed by. Let me cherish some goodmemories ok heheh
ok here it goes:
ok here it goes:
Ø This one time we were roming the streets of patan
early in the morning. It was arround like 6:10 in the morning and in one galli
we kissed. It happenned all of the sudden. I told her look at there and I
kissed her instantly and also hugged her. It was both advantures and sweet at
the same time cuz it was the first time I ever kissed her in public.
Ø In the rush I forgot to mention you guys how we first
got met. God it was so filmy . I was in grade 11 minding my own business in
class and doing my homework in break and suddenly a boy from day section comes
inside our class and starts to hurass her. At first I thought she knew him so I
ket quite cuz you know its not good to interfere in others business but later
on the voice starts to go little loud. They were talking in newari but I didn’t
understyand the word. So I asked the other girl whats the matter and she told
me look na we don’t know him and he keeps on stalking her and keeps on harassing
her. And by that time I could see that in her face she was very sad and
depressed. This boy was hurassing her and she was literally crying from inside.
I could literally see it through reading her eyes. Head down looking , that boy
gasping every inch of air arroung her and saying bullshit. I couldn’t control
to myself then I solded that boy. Then he starts to jabber jabber me with his
newari words then I was like whatt ? then he said in nepali ta ko hos and then
I said to him that she is my girlfried (even though I wasent) But as my temper
started to rise I didn’t hesigitate to get physical. I raised my hand to punch
his f**kingf face the suddenly out of nowhere this girl comes and catches my
hand. Told me it wasent worth it. In our college fighting was strictly
probhited. If anyone was found to be involved in a fight he/she would be
directly expelled. So after that our class was resumed but I couldn’t resist my
anger. I was so angry that I thought my head is gonna explode. It was so sure
that now I had to do something to make myself cooldown. So I thought of
something awesome. I wrote a complaint letter and went to principal and
complained. Later on principal brought that fellow in office and gave him last
warning saying that if you ever come nearthat girl you will be expelled and
moreover he also made him to say sorry to both me and that girl. From thst sole
moment that girl started to love me knowing that I would protect her from
anything. She fellt a kind of secured with me.Well this was how our love started.
Ø Even though we used to meet daily we used to write
latter to eachothers. I know it sounds silly but the feeling was so awesome.
Ø Once she cut her hand with blade saying I love you. I
was so freaking angry with her for doing such silly work and took her to the
medical after college to put the injection of titanas. I did that just to scare
her off so that she would never do it again . but honestly speaking till now
she dosent knows this but I somehow was a kind of overwillemed by such
behaviour. Because knowing someone loves you more than their life is just
priceless. But I never showed this part to her cuz I I told her I was happy she
would do it again but I never want her hurt herslf just to prove that she
loveds me.
Ø Whole class and eventually whole college found out
about us. We were like the lovebirds of college. Friends and even though
sometime teachers also used to tease us but I never really had a problem with
that cuz I knew I loved her really through my heart.
Ø This one time this silly maths teacher joked something
about her but she felt sad and she cried. Her friends try to stop her from
crying but they were unable. Then I got up from my seat and went to her, wiped
her tears in front of whole class and told her,”don’t worry ma chu ni “. Then
she looked up and smiled and then I went back to my desk. Whole class atarted
to cheer us. Hehe dam that moment was priceless.
Ø This onetime we went to mankamana temple on a bike.
While going to the temple we had lots of fun. We rode cable car and visited the
temple. We even did puja inside the temple. Lateron when we retured from the
temple we sat on the little park . and after resting for half hour it was now
3’o clock. Now it was time to go home. As soon as I went in the parking lot to
get my bike. I found out that my bike front tyre was puntctured. I was like
wtf. All the goodtime that we had day was suddenly washed away by the constant
fear of,how we’re gonna return home back. Its already 3 and it was the time
when dashai was coming near. We havent told anyone that we are going mankamana
so now we were on our own. I asked oneperson where was the repair shop then he
said its little up way. So keeping my hopes in my faith I started to push my
bike. After pushing for like 100 meters I found out that the shop was closed
because like I said earlier it festival time so the shokeeper went his home .
Again I asked another person and he replied its another shop little ahead.
Again I started to push my bike. It was three but the sun was burning likea charcoal and that black pitch road was
morethan enough to make me full of sweat. You guys might not believe me but
trust me when say this ki I push my bike to like three kilometers. Then one
petrolpump came. I don’t know either god sent that person or our faith. He
asked us whats the problem. I told him everything then he offered to help us.
Then one bus came in that petrol pump and then he told me there is a repairshop
little ahead so you go on this bus and bring that reparing person. Then I said
ok . then I got up on that bus as soon as the engiene started I just realized
that I have left my girlthere all alone. I was like shit man what if somrthing happens to her. What If the man that
offered to help me just wanted me out and now he is doing something bad with
her. This thought haunted me like a nightmare. I started dialling her number
and it says “tapi ley samparka garna khojnu bhayeko number ma ahaile samparka huna saken kripya kei
samaye pachi puna prayas garnu hola” I was like oh my god this can’t be happening to me. I was so scared for her.
Then I again dialled luckly thistime call was sucessful. I talked with her and
she told me everything was fine there. So I then reached the repair shop . then
the shopkeeper immediately jumped in his bike and then we both went back to
petrol pump. After 30 to 45 minute the repair guy came to us with well puffed
tyre. I was so happy. Oh god teti khusi ta kaile bhayeko thyena. Then the guy
started to fit the tyre. Now you readers will not believe what happened next..
omg the tyre that he just made started to lose air automatically. The new tube
was also puntctured then I was like. Fuck you god seriously have some mercy. Please show some mercy on
her . she is a girl. She must return home. If she stays nightout her family
relatives will not accept her. They will hate her always. I started to get
worried a lot. Oh god please og please oh lors how am I gonna take her home
back. Polease help me . I literally cried yar. Then again the repair guy took
our tyre and went to his shop to change new tube. Its already 4:45 I was
hopeless. Then arround 5:10 that guys again came with repaired tyre. This time
he kept a little less airpresseure in
tyre but I didn’t say a word.then our bike was redy to hit the reoad but due to
constant start on and off the electric circuit was shortcurcied so the fuse was
blown. Horn was not working only headlight was working. Then I kept my
headlights on to sign people that we are in emergency . then I started the
engiene then we hit the road. At the road I was in full speed , pushing my bike
through its limit. We didn’t spoke a word. I was like riding and she was in
back fingures crossed and hoping we would get home. But I don’t know either god
or some luck we went to kathmandu at 6:38 and then I dropped her home at 7. Oh
my god I was so relieved I felt like I just climbed mt Everest. Then I retured
my home at 7:30. I couldn’t even believe what I just went through. It was like
a dream for me. It was a heck of a memory for both of us. I think she will also
never that incident in her life.
Ø This one time we had really sweet moment. After 12 I
tried abroad study but for some reasons I didn’t apply and after that I started
to work learn mobile reparing in nepal as I always had passion of electronics.
So this oneday before christmas , it was our anneversary and then she asked me to meet her at kathmandumall
gate then I took early leave from my work tyhen I went there to meet her. Well
we hadnt planned anything together so I dicided lets go to QFX for movie. But
she didn’t wanted but I forced her to go there cuz it was already 3 pm and I
didn’t had any vehicle at that timeso I had no choice. Then I forced her to go
to the movie and before entering to the movie all of you know that we cannot
take food inside there. So when I had tickets and redy to go inside she said
she had brought cake in her bag. Then in rush I left her bag in the place where
you put helmet and etc. so after putting cake we went for a movie. When the
movie started I looked at her face she was a kind of sad. Then I got up durring
the movie and told her lets get out of here. She told me we have already paid
now lets sit till the end. But I insisted her catched her hand and basically
dragged her from there. Haha it was so funny. Then after coming out of the
threater she then asked me where are we going. I had no idea where to go. Then
one brilliant idea came in my mind. It was starting to get dark. So then I took
her to a nice resturant in Newroad. Then we went on top. I don’t know its our
luck or some kind of favour from god. The top floor was empty. We had the whole
place just for ourselves. Then I ordered some food and she brought cake on the
table and placed a candle saying 3 in the middle. She said,” light the candle
since you enlightned my life and our
relationship” Then I light a match and as I as about to light that candle I
looked at her right in her eyes. Oh my god even while writing this I just got
goosebumps. It was so magical. I could see through her eyes that she was very
happy from inside, that four teeth smile(she
used to smile showing her four teeth, its not that she had big teeth.
They were extreamly normal and freakingly cute. Its just what I used to call
her smile.). After having the first dinner in my whole entire life. I felt we
are not a kind of matured people. Eating dinner was in fact a big deal for me
beecause I had never gone to a resturand at night. I had only seen that in a
movie.well there are no any words to explain about how I felt at that very
moment.
Well
life could never be as awesome as that.
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